Moments Wid Me

2011-07-06T00:47:00.000-07:00

stop... wait... i can't breathe...

its too fast... and its not thrilling!!!!

happy birthday...

2011-07-06T00:45:00.000-07:00

Another year gone... one more birthday when you were not here...
Happy Birthday Pa!

The Back Logs...

2011-05-23T11:28:00.000-07:00

For some time now I have neglected my blog....royally ignored it for no reason... I have been writting almost all over the place except here... so here are some of my fav ramblings...(an attempt to make it up to the place where I find peace...)

"Just want You Back...:("

Saturday, October 31, 2009 at 11:59pm

Have you crossed the underpass near Ansals Plaza in South delhi... have you noticed these four words written across the side wall...

I have...
I do always...every time I pass through the under pass my eyes invariably travel to the corner of the wall buffed with the four words... how tragically romantic it is, how crazy could a person be for another to go to this extent or just how drunk :)...
and every time I cant help but wonder did he/she, the one it was written for, too read it.. did he/she go back....
I make up stories in my mind some with a happy ending and some with a very happy ending, call me an optimist!
and know what, I too have a story, the story of how I first got to notice these four words...
I love my story too... just like all the other stories...some real some made up...

I just got reminded of this... thought of sharing...

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.... a comma....

, November 15, 2009 at 8:27pm

..just where the road bends and you can no longer follow the shadows ahead you will face your fear(s)... the fear of being lonely,aimless, directionless, scared of what lies ahead and the confusion - whether to step forward or trace back to safety...!!! And if you are me,you would take a moment stop and stare at the bend for what would seem like eternity....
---sunday 13th dec-- 10:06 PM---
... and then with an uncertain yet determined state of mind you take that bend what lies ahead is a dark tunnel but you know now that there will be an end to this tunnel and whne you reach the other side you would have traveled a distance you neverknew of...
... darkness is not always bad, not always negative... infact its where peace lies... unless ofcourse the noise in your head is too loud for even the darkness to consume it...
... befriend the darkness and you shall have no one to fear!!

-Nidhi

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picked up the pen again...

Sunday, May 15, 2011 at 5:21pm

"Its been long since I put any ink in my pen. I have always been busy, for varied reasons, but never had to inspire myself to let my feelings out in form of words. Words came out by themselves, I never had to phrase them or put them in structured sentences so they make sense. My words always were haphazard, directionless, spontaneous, vague... just like me.

It changed. I changed.

My words dont come out any more. They prefer to stay inside my head. Its like Physics. Remember The Brownian Motion. Well, thats precisely what I am getting at. I was never good at Physics, my brain is not supplemented enough to understand so many laws. And that explains a lot of phenomenons which happen in my life..."

This is a draft from last year... saved, incomplete, never shared - just like a lot of other things in my life...

Looks like, its time I start unfolding.. its time i start completeting things I start...its time I change, again!!!!

I Miss You...

2010-07-02T02:42:00.000-07:00

There's a hole in my heart.. and it looks like you..

Will miss you forever!!!

2010-04-04T11:49:00.000-07:00

Theres an ache in my heart,

Like its been hit by a dart...

An ever growing pain that just wont go.
Theres water in my eyes,

Like its been raining from the skies...

That’s the only way I let my emotions flow.
Theres a sorrow in my tone,

So I am sitting here alone…

I wont talk else my sadness would show.
Theres secret I have kept,

And theres a reason, I wept…

And that’s something I wont let, anyone, ever know!

Happiness...

2009-11-06T10:37:00.000-08:00

What is happiness???

Is it the fleeting emotion you experience when you are doing something you are good at or when you achieve something you thought you were never capable of? Is it the feeling you get when you are assured of not falling, not failing or is the state of mind you achieve when things go your way?
Is happiness a temporary hormonal reaction your body/mind/heart (I am still not sure which part of "us" has the sensory receptors of happiness same way as I don't know where exactly on my tongue i feel sour and chilly hot) experiences under certain specific/general but favorable circumstances!!

I searched Wikipedia (where I think you can find anything, even the lost left of your blue socks), and this is what the wiki-guy has to say about Happiness-
Happiness is a state of mind or feeling characterized by contentment, love, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy.[1] A variety of philosophical, religious, psychological and biological approaches have striven to define happiness and identify its sources.
Philosophers and religious thinkers often define happiness in terms of living a good life, or flourishing, rather than simply as an emotion. Happiness in this older sense was used to translate the Greek Eudaimonia, and is still used in virtue ethics.

To understand this I guess I would require Dictionary.com and more Wikipedia :|.

After "wiki-ing" I decided to seek my answer in the quotes of some famous men/women. Most of them, as per my understanding, weren't sure either! (I am not trying to draw any corollaries here .. :/).However the words did leave a smile on my face...happiness?? I dont know.

I could still not find a convincing answer to "What is happiness?"

Is happiness, as some Unknown guy, said,
Happiness is not having what you want. It is wanting what you have. or is it dwellings of soul
(one more part of human anatomy I dont know the location of, but its supposed to be somewhere inside us, where.. no one knows)...

Is happiness the conviction that you are loved or is it lack of self doubt, discontentment, anxiety, grief, jealousy and so on...

What is happiness after all....

13th floor

2009-08-30T06:05:00.000-07:00

"We fight the shadows,
in search of light,
Awaiting the dawn
in this dark night.."

These are not my lines...and I dont know who wrote them... but yes I heard them from Purab Kohli (and also Sandhya Mridul) ... thats all for the credits!

Anyway, these four lines... spoken out loud in two languages really left a mark on me...
I read them inthe subtitles, I heard them loud and clear with deep emphasis on every single word... and yes! it fits!
For almost two years I have been looking for something... and even though I have found a few things, I am not sure if they are what I was looking for. So my search continues.....
The strange thing is, I realize that the certain something, I was looking for is not what I have achieved after all this insane effort slash hard-work and this realization more than often comes right after i have blown the victory bigul...and so it turns out, what should have been "neighbours envy owners pride" is just something owner has disowned... I just wouldnot desire it anymore as if I dint ever want it!!!!
I reason myself by calling them underachievements... but if they really are underachievements then I shoulnot regret letting them go? That means, this post shouldnot exist!! But it does!! Its as if I wont have it but I wont have it gone either!
I believe I am cursed... I am cursed to be waiting... to be wanting... to not know what I want or what I am waiting for..
But one thing I think is not part of this evil spell cast on me is the drive I have to keep wanting and keep waiting...
I once read somewhere, 'we all were born with reasons...' ... and to some extent I have found one of the reasons for my existence... but I guess there are more... and I am waiting!!!!

i want...

2009-07-23T12:52:00.000-07:00

i want to be part of a play,

i want to live on a mountain,

i want to dive into a river, bathe in waterfall,

i want to make and play music,

i want to be stranded on a railway station and fall in love,

i want to dance under the stars in a snowy night,

i want to walked barefoot on wet sand with a hand in my hand,

i want to wear a white gown and look beautiful,

i want to be swept off my feet by my prince on a stallion,

i want to hear my name in 'his' heartbeats,

i want to be held with love, for what would seem like eternity,

i want to laugh so much that it'd make my eyes tear,

i want to have a song written for me,

i want someone to tell me how i complete him,

i want to have a ring of petal on my finger,

i want to be proposed,

i want to be looked upto,

i want to be successful in whatever i do

i want to love my job,

i want to have a proud lover,

i want to be kissed,

Bachpan

2009-07-17T10:15:00.000-07:00

Got this in a text msg.. but i totally liked it and now it finds its place at the 53rd position on my blog... ada!

बचपन के दिन भी कितने अछे थे,

तब तो सिर्फ खिलोने टूटा करते थे,

वो खुशियाँ भी न जाने कैसी खुशियाँ थीं,

तितली को पकड़ के उछला करते थे,

पाँव मार के खुद बारिश के पानी में,

अपने आप को भिगोया करते थे,

अब तो एक आंसू भी रुसवा कर जाता है,

बचपन में तो दिल खोल के रोया करते थे...

Just a thought

2009-07-11T13:35:00.000-07:00

Have you ever experienced this, that, when you keep looking at something for too long while paying less attention... you lose focus and that thing either starts blurring or, kind of, multiplies... I suggest pay attention... that thing may just be a solution or a problem!!!

randomly yours....

2009-07-11T11:59:00.000-07:00

staring at the wall
welled up eyes...
with pain in my chest
my heart cries...

love...
lost...
realized...

feel like drowning
choked with lies..
he smiles....

and she dies.

2nd July

2009-07-02T11:33:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Pa!

I love you the most !

The Night I did IT...

2009-05-31T13:24:00.000-07:00

** wait!!! stop imagining stuff before even reading!!!! **

All right, so I am finally doing this. I had decided and in a way vowed never to really write about "how my days been" kinda post here, as in on this blog(yeah!! stalker... I got more blog(s)), because that would make me a serious blogger, which by the way I am not (check archives for evidence).

My day, sucked... not entirely but in a way it did entirely. There were small parts where i smiled and laughed...(hence, "the not entirely") but since these parts either happened in my head, or in a sarcastic manner, I say "in a way it did entirely".

I wouldnt really bore you with, details, but I will definitely share the part where I met my own ghost, from the past.

After a really long time I was having these imaginary converstaions both in my head and in the air!. I was imagining weird stuff the same way I used to when I was in college.... I had completely forgotten about that part of my personality..... But it came back to me, both in a good and a bad fashion. I say good, because I was funny up there(in my head) I invented jokes and scenarios which are definitely a comic-strip kind of funny, maybe a sitcom level too...and bad because I was mean and as a certain someone would put it 'non-sarcatically irritating and teasingly pinchy'!

Well I know I am not sweetest person on earth, but I had been rather sweet sober and very docile for a long time now(except for my fight with almost every one in my family, till yesterday... and for records, I wasnot entirely the 'only' culprit).

Anyway, I was watching 'How I Met Your Mother' (Season 2, first time) and I realized I was feeling different. I wanted to act weird, and I did, I wanted to write, which too I did, and have a fight, well! I had already done that but well! I continued with it, so hell! yeah I did that too.

I am still feeling strangely different and I dont know what I would want to do next... but I really hope its better that the last thing I wanted to do... And for you, dear reader(/stalker).. if I continued to want to write, i might just b back tomorow... so do watch the space(/keep stalking)!!!!

BTW, naah!! I am not doing it again.. so move on read the next blog you find(/keep stalking... I dont have many stalkers ;) )

P.S. Although I know I was very mean, selfish, insensitive and 'non-sarcatically irritating and teasingly pinchy' to a certain someone, I really feel that i did the right thing!! You say - "How rude!!!" and I say "mind your own god! damn business"

2009-04-25T14:28:00.000-07:00

...if you'd ever asked me and I was not-drunk and not-stoned and not-a-lot-of-other-things, I'd probably tell you this too was among my ideas of picture-perfect romance

2009-04-25T13:25:00.000-07:00

1. This blog is not dead.
2. I think I can still rhyme.
3. Indian Ocean should really hire me for writing lyrics for their "songs???"
4. My phone hasnt rung in last 12 hours.
5. I have to reduce my weight else shop more clothes
6. I dont want anyone getting married anymore.
7.This blog has a middle finger which it is pointing at you right now.
8.Baloo is a great dog better than dodo but he will die, soon.
9.I dont have a career.
10.I dont have INR 50,00,000 (fifty fugging facs) to get CMU stamp in my resume.
11.I dont fit into the jeans I bought last to last month.
12.And I don't even friggin' care.
13.My cars number plate is hanging.
14.If you do not have a spine I could lend you mine.
15. Mohit Chauhan better be good looking.
16.This blog has no title.
17.But this blog has a butt.*jiggle jiggle*

लोग कहने लगे हैं....

2008-09-19T12:29:00.000-07:00

वोह कहते हैं की हम खुश नज़र आने लगे हैं आज कल,
किसी की मोहब्बत में पड़े हैं या किसी के गम से उभरें हैं...
हम भी मुस्कुरा देते हैं और कहते हैं उन्हें की
किसी और में नही ये बात की हमें बदल दे वोह तो हम ही बहुत दिनों बाद ख़ुद से मिले हैं...

वोह कहते हैं की बदले हुए से मिजाज़ नज़र आते हैं आपके
क्या कुछ मिल गया है जन्नत से जनाब को
हम भी शोखी से कह जाते हिं ऐसे में,
जन्नत हमारे दम से है हम जन्नत के मोहताज नही...

Forever

2008-08-01T12:50:00.000-07:00

Theres nothing that we call Forever...

But how I wish it was!

from here n there

2008-08-01T12:46:00.000-07:00

not just once
it has happened time n again
i look into the mirror
n relive the pain
the pain of being me
the pain no one else wud know
the pain i have always had
the pain i'll keep to grow
i m not sorry fr wat i am
i am happy in my empire of dust
all i want is to stay in my shell
coz i dont have no one to trust
i m sad but i m not sorry
coz i have learnt to live this way
i have lived being me fr 21 yrs now....
n this is hw i'll fray!!

I had written this bit long back(yes, its been long since I was 21) in a friends blog as a comment... n I realize all these years passed n lifes still the same to me....

I want the Rainbow....

2008-05-17T14:05:00.000-07:00

I dont feel pretty, not any more
I want the rainbow, to colour my soul!

I was losing myself with my colours
But i did not understand then
and now i am monochrome
I cant tell apart shadow from my reflection

Violet was my radiance...
and I lost it to the world so sad
With blue I lost
All the stability and the faith I ever had

Indigo was my love for myself
My thoughts and my individuality
Red took with itself all the romance and my fantasies
and brought me face to face with 'what they call' reality

Losing yellow rendered me joyless
I lost my spunk... my tears I could no more hide
Orange gone and so is my enthusiasm
I have lost the furor I once signified....

With green I lost the harmony
I once had with my soul,
But now I want my colours back
I want my rainbow, whole...

... Crap... yeah.. its me!

2007-10-08T11:56:00.000-07:00

These days I have been thinking...
yes, talking less thinking more,
good or bad - dunno
but its not normal thats for sure.

I think of times when we laughed
and its strange that it makes me cry
and then when i want to smile again
i pick up a fight..... lol.... dunno why.

There was once a time
when they called me "cute"...
i was "sweet" for some time after that
and then they named me "rude"...

Who am I... i really dont care anymore
so trying to figure THAT out is vain,
'Cause for some i will still be nice, to some rude
but for a few i know, i will always be a pain ;)

And as usual, i have lost track again
guess its cause i m talking after long...
my heart may have gone weaker
but my finger muscles are strong :)

Now getting back to the story
which i have here to share
the story is of my life... naah!
i know you'd least care!!!

The story's not yet complete
and it will take some time
hey did u notice as well
some how i can still rhyme... :))

dheere dheere haule haule

2007-10-06T12:27:00.000-07:00

zindagi ke maayne jaan rahe hain hum...
dheere dheer haule haule
ek "naye-khud" ko pehchaan rahe hain hum...
dheer dheere haule haule
uljhanon ke bhanwar se iss dil ko nikaal rahe hain hum
dheere dheere haule haule
majhdahaar mein dagmagaati kashti apni sambhaal rahe hain hum
dheere dheere haule haule

zindagi......

2007-09-19T12:10:00.001-07:00

woh ehsaas jise gham kehti hai duniya
muskuraate hue jiye ja rahe hain,
woh paani jise aansoon kehti hai duniya
khud se chhupake piye ja rahe hain,
woh tukde jinhe yaadein kehti hai duniya
apni saanson se unko siye jaa rahe hain,
woh log thi basti jinse duniya hamaari
mohabbat ke dhoke diye ja rahe hain......

Love you....

2007-09-15T14:13:00.001-07:00

The missing part of my heart

....yaadein.... baatein

2007-09-15T13:50:00.000-07:00

Aaj hum hain, kal hamaari yaadein hongi
Jab hum na honge tab hamaari baatein hongi
Kabhi paltoge zindagi ke ye panne
To shayad tumhari aankhon se bhi barsaatein hongi

A story untold... so far..

2007-02-26T03:39:00.000-08:00

He met her first outside a restrobar
He skid his bike infront of her car...
He smirked and said "Ma parking, Honey!"
She bumped into his bike, proud of her money!!

He fumed but restrained, he kept his calm
He was a tough guy yet had all charm,
She stepped out... ah! she looked gorgeous!!
Threw a bundle at his face saying "dont u make any fuss"

He smiled again and walked towards her,
She stood there dazzling in her diamonds and fur
He walked a little closer and held her by her hand
As he felt her soft skin slipping away as sand

She was numb and cold his touch had made her freeze
And suddenly she was back, feeling weak in her knees
He pulled her close, she tried to set free
but his grip was firm, and so frail was she

His face approached hers, she was stunned by maze
He curled his lips, & blew tresses off her face
Her heart best seized, when his eyes met hers
She was brought back to life when he pulled her purse.

She stood there bewildered as he stuffed the money in
Putting the purse back on car he turned away with a grin
She watched him from there as he walked getting far
And slowly he disappeared somewhere in the bar.

... fr u....

2006-04-10T07:46:00.000-07:00

in the frst ray of sunshine
in the most beautiful of all views
in the melodies of all songs
in the freshness of dews
in the honest smiles
in the innocence of newborns eyes
in the maternal love
in the fathers pride
in the touch of child
in the calmness of night
in the creators sight
in the winners delight
one thing is common..
the feeling is true
just like my dear
my faith in you!!

... incomplete...

2006-04-07T03:08:00.000-07:00

frozen soul
a heart that bleeds
rotten thoughts
in ur mind they breed
calls for u
from the darkest sea
my last resort
to let myself free

echo of my voice!!

2006-03-28T11:19:00.000-08:00

in the shadow u see... wat u cant see in light....
in the silence u will hear that voice...
slowly the thoughts wud enter and soon they will conquer...
easy yet difficult ...
so simply complicated..

ever heard the echo of ur own voice... so familiar so knwn yet it feels like coming frm some distant place... somewhere u havent been to... some place u probably dont even belong to...

i think i am becoming the echo of my own voice!!

... in remembrance of my....tear....

2006-02-21T05:14:00.000-08:00

i had u in my heart
frm the times unknown
i had u there wid me
as the feelings never shown

i had u close, near n dear
not wanting to lose
i had u not as a compulsion
i had u for u i choose..

i had u as my guard
i had u as my weakness
i had u wen i felt more
i had u wen i spoke less

slowly u come n go...
as a drop out of my eyes
dunno if its u or me
whos paying the price!!

ummm... something

2006-01-23T10:39:00.000-08:00

empty mind ... devils workshop.... dunno if makes any sense... but i had to write something...

if u not like it... UR PROBLEM

in the nubness of life
in the darkness of light
in the hatred of love
i search for my soul
in the quiet little laughter
n the noisy silences
in the lonliness of crowds
i search for my soul
in the warmth of your touch
in the calmness of your eyes
in the depth of your quiets
i search for my soul
i know u have seen me
your love radiates from within
but am i worth you
i have yet to decide...
some questions unasked
and answers to find
i have yet to decide
so i search for my soul

An Eternal Love Story..

2005-12-21T11:54:00.000-08:00

dear light...

i love you...
but you are my end....

Your truly,
darkness....

....

2005-12-17T13:24:00.000-08:00

the feeling was new...
't was happiness being born to sorrow
on the palm of my hand..
i held my fate i held my tomorrow..

a lil overwhelmed a lil surprised
but most of all i was petrified...

is it a No... is it a yes...
what has she sent...
will i see her ever again
or is this the end!!

should i unwrap ..
or should i wait..
its my divine decree
these wraps captivate.

let me wait for the feeling to sink in,
let me wait to catch my beat
let me wait till i m prepared
let me wait till the two ends meet.

just another day with my dillusion
just another day before i end this confusion...

before i find out wats in store fr me
fr just one day lemme bide..
wud it be same dark lost evenings
or wud it be her mornings by my side.

candle lit dinners n her smiling face
or music of silence by the fire place..

the smooths of her skin against my lips
or another song born on my fingertips..

her cares her love the twinkle of here eyes
or my life being put off like fire dies...

just another day before i can brace
watever is in hold... in that wrap n lace!!!

Stars n Me

2005-11-19T21:50:00.000-08:00

I am sitting by my window and lookin at the sky...
"Do we really become stars...after when we die..?"

How, I wonder this transition takes place..
where do our hands go.. n where goes our face!!

What makes them sparkle or should I say shine..
Weird it may sound to you, but I think the question's fine.

I really wanna know, how can you tell,
Which ones a guy n which ones a Gal..

Do the old people shine brighter
than the younger ones do...
And also if the country, religion
caste n color matter here too!!

I wonder, as behind the clouds..
moon tries to hide,
Is this what happened to GOD
after when he died

Once Again...

2005-11-19T21:25:00.000-08:00

Once again the night is new
Once again the stars twinkle
and smile, as I think of you...
Once Again...

Once again i gaze the full moon
Once again as the night sets in
I pray to God to see you soon...
Once Again...

Once again to hear your voice
Once again to feel your touch
and relive those moments of joys...
Once Again...

Once again I am in love with you
Once again I feel like being born
and I feel anew
Once Again...

Those eyes...

2005-11-19T07:46:00.001-08:00

I think of a face unseen unknown,
As i close my eyes am no more alone
The face... i dont see but the eyes i do,
Eyes so compelling spellbounding.. ah! those two!!
They are lookin at me i can feel it inside,
As if they can effortlessly read my mind ...
The eyes speak to me all that was unheard,
The compassion that they see me with has also filled my heart.
Filled with love so tangible & innocence like never before ,
An impression of eternal longingness they bore...
Dark as moonless night they reflect a lovin soul,
Just as diamonds sparkle frm beneath the coal!!

A Dream in the Night....

2005-11-19T07:01:00.000-08:00

Dream In The Night..
-Anonymous!!

Lost in confusion and total self bliss
I've found the relation between dream and wish
A dream is a fantasy lived only while asleep
But a wish has a compass vast, far and deep.
A dream can bring true the wish never thought
As your mind wanders aimlessly and feelings are sought.
But a wish is a simple, momentous undertaking
A grasping of things while still in the making.
Now my understanding of wish and of dreams
Have broadened my scope - or so it would seem
But still I'm confused and nothing is clear
Because you are a wish, yet a dream so dear.
With the breath of each day, I wish for your sight
Visions of loveliness turned to dreams in the night
You've become such a fantasy with realistic tones
I long for your love and time spent alone
Sadly enough my dreams cause confusion
For all their purpose are meager illusion
And though the dawn of each day may be cheerful to sight
I fear the darkness and my continuing fight.
For now its a war - a battle within
A dreadful nightmare which rationality must win
What should I do? Where shall I begin?
Should I ask for your love or remain a dear friend?
In my dreams youre my lover and my world is complete
But in life your a martyr to hope so elite
I've grown to know you and care with a passion
But fear lies within mutual attraction.
If I am to approach you with some indication
Would I strengthen our friendship or cause detonation?
This is the confusion, the struggle, the fight,
Until I am sure, youll remain a dream in the night

Lost You...

2005-11-18T19:29:00.001-08:00

I cant bear this night,
its raining again..
every falling drop
reminds me of my pain.

pain in my heart
that fails all my senses
no glee no relief
no palstic smiles no pretences

never in my run
did I stop to realize
was it worth, wat I got,
paying u as a price..

And as the night settles in,
the calmness of nigh reminds me of you
the truth in your eyes
n the love so pure n true

Now I see you gone
u belong to some one else
no more can i claim u
u have had ur wedding bells

You look so happy, though
not as much as u cud've been
but that too is my fault
I was selfish n mean

I deserve you not,
No! not any more
all i can do is.. watch u sail away...
as i stand alone by the shore!!

Your name tells u....

2005-11-18T19:26:00.000-08:00

First Letter In Your Name tells something about you ......

Your name begin with : A

U are not particularly romantic, but you are interested in action.You
mean business. With you, what you see is what you get.You have no
patience for flirting and can't be bothered with someone who is trying
to be coy,cute, demure, and subtly enticing. You are an up-front
person.

You often don't get hints & you ever pass any. Brains turn you on. You
must feel that your partner is! intellectually stimulating, otherwise
you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require
loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being
appreciated. Your mate's physical attractiveness is important for you.

You tend to be very Practical, & not very emotional Your choices are
very good & can only lead to trouble. You are very self satisfied &
egoistic.

Does your name begin with: B

You give off vibes of lazy sensuality. You enjoy being romanced,
wined, and dined. You are very happy to receive gifts as
an____ex-pression of the affection of your lover. You want to be
pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You are private in your
____ex-pression of endearments, and particular when it comes to love.
You will hold off until everything meets with your approval. You can
control your appetite & feelings. You require new sensations and
experiences. You are willing to experiment.

Does your name begin with: C

You are a very social individual, and it is important to you to have a
relationship. You require closeness and togetherness. You want the
object of your affection to be socially acceptable and good-looking.
You see your lover as a friend and companion. You are very sensual,
Needing someone to appreciate and almost worship you. When this cannot
be achieved, you have the ability to hold out on affection until you
receive this.. You are an expert at controlling your desires and doing
without.

Does your name begin with: D

Once you get it into your head that you want someone, you move full
Steam ahead in your suit. You do not give up your quest easily. You
are nurturing and caring. If someone has a problem, this turns you on.
You are highly passionate, loyal, and intense in your involvements,
sometimes possessive and jealous. You are very sharp & talented often
with sense of humor. When people bother to look deep inside they
cannot resist what they see.You are stimulated by the eccentric and
unusual, having a free and open attitude.

You get jealous of other people and lose your temper ..

Does your name begin with: E

Your greatest need is to talk. If your date is not a good listener,
you have trouble relating. A person must be intellectually stimulating
or you are not interested sexually. You need a friend for a lover and
a companion You hate disharmony and disruption, but you do enjoy a
good argument once in a while-it seems to stir things up. You flirt a
lot, for the challenge is more important. But once you give your heart
away, you are uncompromisingly loyal. You will fall asleep with a good
book.

sometimes, in fact, you prefer a good book to a lover

Does your name begin with: F

You are idealistic and romantic, putting your lover on a pedestal. You
look for the very best mate you can find. You are a flirt, yet once
committed, you are very loyal. You are sensuous and privately
passionate. Publicly, you can be showy, extravagant, and gallant. You
are a born romantic. Dramatic love scenes are a favorite fantasy past
time. You can be a very generous lover.

Does your name begin with: G

You are fastidious, seeking perfection within yourself and your lover.

You respond to a lover who is your intellectual equal or superior, and
one who can enhance your status. You are sensuous and know how to
reach the peak of stimulation, because you work at it meticulously.
You can be extremely active-never tiring out. Your duties and
responsibilities take precedence over everything else. You may have
difficulty getting emotionally close to people. You are kind nature &
sweet which is found to be attractive by many.

Does your name begin with: H

You seek a mate who can enhance your zest for life ,fun & everything
You seek for. You will be very generous to your lover once you have
Attained a commitment. You are very affectionate & very strong. Your
gifts are actually an investment in your partner. Before the
commitment, though, you tend to be very careful with your every move
and equally cautious in your involvements often as you believe that
you have to look out for yourself. You are a sensual and patient
lover. You will hold off till everything meets your full approval. You
are a perfectionist, hard to satisfy and strong in your beliefs. Not
influential, you always stand your ground. People can always count on
you to stand by them in a crisis. You are a dreamer with/ a passion
for life.

Does your name begin with: I

You have a great need to be loved, appreciated... even worshiped. You
enjoy luxury, sensuality, and pleasures of the flesh. You like necking
spend hours just touching feeling & exploring. You look for lovers who
know what they are doing. You are not interested in an amateur, unless
that amateur wants a tutor. You are fussy and exacting about having
your desires satisfied. You are willing to experiment and try new
modes of ex-pression.

You bore easily and thus require adventure and change.Your commitments
don't last very long & you often tend to stray. Loyalty is not one of
your strong points. You are more sensual than sexual, but you are
sometimes downright lustful.

Does your name begin with: J

You are blessed with a great deal of physical energy. When used for a
good cause there is nothing to stop you, except maybe that they aren't
always used for the good. (you could dance all night.) You respond to
the thrill of the chase and the challenge of the mating game.You can
carry on great romances in your head. At heart you are a roamer and
need to set out on your own every so often. You will carry on long-
distance relationships with ease. You are idealistic and need to
believe in love.

You have a need to be nurtured deep within.

Does your name begin with: K

You are secretive, self-contained, and shy. You are very sexy,
sensual, and passionate, but you do not let on to this. Only in
intimate privacy will this part of your nature reveal itself. When it
gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the
little tricks of the trade, can play any role or any game, and take
your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the
patience to wait for the right person to come along. You are very
generous & giving, often selfless.

You are kind-natured & sweet, which is found to be attractive by many.

You are a good friend.

Does your name begin with: L

You can be very romantic, attached to the glamour of love. Having a
partner is of paramount importance to you. You are free in your
____ex-pression of love and are willing to take chances, try new
sexual experiences and partners, provided it's all in good taste.
Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is intellectually
stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the
relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know
that you're being appreciated. "You require loving, cuddling, wining,
and dining to know that you're being appreciated ".

Does your name begin with: M

You may appear innocent, unassuming and shy; but we know that
Appearances can lie. When it comes to sex, you are no novice but
something of a skilled technician. You can easily go to extremes,
though, running the gamut from instability to boredom with the whole
idea of love. You can be highly critical of you mate, seeking
perfection in both of you. It is not easy to find someone who can meet
your standards. You have difficulty expressing emotions and drawing
lose to lovers. You are often selfish, thinking you are always right
no matter what. You never give in. Winning is your prime

desire- at any cost. You often forget friends and family and you live
for the moment.

Does your name begin with: N

You are emotional and intense. When involved in a relationship, you
Throw your entire being into it. Nothing stops you; there are no holds
barred.You are all-consuming and crave someone who is equally
passionate and intense.

You believe in total freedom. You are willing to try anything and
everything. Your supply of energy is inexhaustible. You want to be
pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You also enjoy mothering
your mate. You often have the greatest love affairs all by yourself,
in your head. You are very imaginative.

Does your name begin with: O

You are very interested in fun activities yet secretive and shy about
your desires. You can re-channel much of your energy into making money
and/or seeking we. You can easily have extended periods of celibacy.
You are a passionate, compassionate lover, requiring the same
qualities From your mate. Love is serious business; thus you demand
intensity, diversity and is willing to try anything or anyone.
Sometimes your passions turn to possessiveness, which must be kept in
check.

Does your name begin with: P

You are very conscious of social properties. You wouldn't think of
Doing anything that might harm your image or Reputation. Appearances
count.

Therefore, you require a good-looking partner. You also require an
intelligent partner. Oddly enough, you may view your partner as your
enemy... a good fight stimulates those vibes. You are relatively free
of

hang- ups.You are willing to experiment and try new ways of doing
things.You are very social and sensual; you enjoy flirting and need a
good deal of physical gratification.

Does your name begin with: Q

You require constant activity and stimulation. You have tremendous
physical energy. It is not easy for a partner to keep up with you. You
are an enthusiastic lover and tend to be attracted to people because
of their ethnic groups. You need romance, hearts and flowers, and
conversation to turn you on and keep you going.

Does your name begin with: R

You are a no-nonsense, action-oriented individual. You need someone
who can keep pace with you and who is your intellectual equal-the
smarter the better. You are turned on more quickly by a great mind
than by a great body. However, physical attractiveness is not very
important to you. You have to be proved to be worthy for a partner.
You have a need to prove yourself the best. You want feedback on your
performance. You are open, stimulating & romantic.

Does your name begin with: S

For you, it is pleasure before business. You can be romantically
idealistic to a fault and is capable of much sensuality. But you never
loose control of your emotions. Once you make the commitment you stick
like glue. You could get jealous and possessive. You tend to be very
selfish often regarding yourself as the only human being on the
planet..

You like being the center of attention. You are very caring sensitive,
private & sometimes very passive. Turned on by soft lights, romantic
thoughts. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert.
You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role, or
any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool
around. You have the patience to wait for the right person to come
along. You are very generous & giving, often selfless. You are a good
friend.

Does your name begin with: T

You are very sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. You like
someone who takes the lead. You get turned on by music, soft lights &
romantic thoughts. You fantasize & tend to fall in & out of love soon.

When in love you are romantic, idealistic, mushy & extremely. You
enjoy having your senses & your feelings stimulated, titillated &
teased. You are a great flirt. You can make your relationships fit
your dreams, all in your own head. Once you put your mind to something
you manage to stand by it and see your dreams through. You aren't
very good at expressing your feelings. You like things your own way.
You do not like change, you like to hold on to things. This may not
always be good because if given an opportunity things may develop into
great things.

You work your way to the top. Attention must be given to what others
say because even though you don't want to hear it their advice may
turn out to save your life.

Does your name begin with: U

You are enthusiastic & at your happiest when in love. When not in love
you're in love with love and always looking for someone to adore. You
see romance as challenge. You are a roamer & needs adventure,
excitement freedom. You enjoy giving gifts & looking good. You are
willing to put others feelings above yours.

Does your name begin with: V

You are individualistic & you need freedom, space & excitement. You
wait till you know someone well before committing yourself. Knowing
someone means psyching her/him out. You feel a need to get into
his/her head to see what makes him tick. You are attracted to
eccentric types.

You believe that age is no barrier. You are good at responding to
danger, fear & suspense.

Does your name begin with: W

You are very proud, determined & refuses to take no for an answer when
it come to love. Your ego is at stake all the time. You are romantic,
idealistic, often in love with love itself, not seeing your partner
for who she or he really is. You feel deeply about love & tends to
throw all of your self into a relationship. Nothing is too good for
your lover.

You like playing love games.

Does your name begin with: X

You need constant stimulation because you get bored quickly. You can
handle more than 1 relationship at a time with ease. You can't shut
off your mind.

You can do 2 things at once. You are very talented.

Does your name begin with: Y

You are sensual & very independent. If you can't have it your way, you
will forget the whole thing . You want to control your relationships
which doesn't work out too well. You respond to physical stimulation.

However if you can make money you will give up the pleasures of the
flesh for the moment. You have a need to prove yourself the best. You
want feedback on your performance. You are open, stimulating &
romantic.

Does your name begin with: Z

You are very romantic but show feels that to love means to suffer. You
wind up serving your mate & attracting people who have unusual
trouble.

You see yourself as a lover's savior.

Twos a crowd.....

2005-11-10T22:57:00.000-08:00

I think of u..
n my heart bleeds again,
I can see every drop of my blood
fallin on ur pane !

outside ur window,
u will feel me dear
but u r safe in ur room
not knowing, unaware.

I will bleed to death
it seems so sure to me...
n u wudnt even get to knw
u had long let me free.

You said u free me
frm promises and frm swears
u siad u wanna move on
as i m no more in ur prayers

u asked me to move on too
but the sense of direction, i have lost
i wanted the warmth of ur embrace
but ur heart's but frost

I knw it wont be easy
but now I am game
I m gonna move on
nothings gonna be same

I will have my life
happy n proud
with just me
as now, even two's a crowd!!

i picked up the pen again....

2005-11-10T22:45:00.000-08:00

Its been some time...
feels like ages though
the memories in my heart
n the pain u left to grow.

the emptiness of nights
the lonliness of days
the shallowness of eyes
n the sadness of my face!!

Not a soul I remember
I feel trapped in my shell
sound of laughter long forgotten
I am going through hell.

No more do I want to cry
no more I wanna suffer this pain
I want to let myself free
So I picked up the pen once again.....

Ketan Pandit

2005-11-10T22:01:00.000-08:00

You see him for first
& u'll take him for sixteen...
Its all thanks to his
boyish looks and body so lean..( [;)] things have changes a lil now)

He was our senior
met him in first sem
though sittin with all jerks..
he looked different frm them

Had long hair
that complimented his face
and when he started talkin
yeah! he boosted of sm grace

hes got an expressive pair of eyes
that are big n brown
n fr always he's smiling
'least i havent seen him frown

Nice is his family
his mum so sweet
whenever we been to his place
we always had a treat...(yummm... those chhole bhature!!... thankoo aunty:">)

Now he's in Pune(i wrote this two yrs bak... :D)
completing his post grad
still remember those times togather
that we all had!!!

Home Alone

2005-10-08T04:53:00.000-07:00

The door was shut,

the light was gone....

I stood next to the window,

I was all alone!!

The sky was grey

it was about to rain...

There was frequent lightening

which would light up the lane.

Mine was the corner house,

very old and worn out..

My heart would jump

with every roar of cloud!!

Before leaving me home alone

my family had asked me twice,

I acted a brave heart then

and now I am paying the price.

My family had been to a party

while I preferred to stay,

& I regret this decision the most

if I may say...!!

I lit up a candle,

put it on a shelf....

"They'll be home soon",

I kept telling myself.

I had just finished my dinner

in the dimnishing candle light..

I was planning to lie down

as it was way past midnight!!

Suddenly I heard something

it was the knock on the door....

Gosh!! I was terrified....

stood frozen on the floor!!

I thought and thought,

but what.... I dont know,

My mind was blank, my heart missed beats

and the blood just wouldn't flow.....!!

There was a sudden lightening

and the door knocked again....

This time it got harder

as did the rain.......!!

Could it be a thief

a killer or some ghost,

one moment i was frozen

the other i'd coast.

"Who's it" I said

as I gathered all my guts...

And reached the door

besides all Ifs & buts.

But there was no reply,

and this scared me even more....

The rain had become a storm,

and the knock, thomping on the door!!

I peeped through the key hole

with my eyes open wide....

But couldnt see a thing,

as it was so dark outside!!

"Now I am dead" I thought

theres no escape

I remembered all the Gods

every size n shape.

I gathered all my courage

and finally opened the door

Nothing would have shocked me more

then what was there in store!!

It was nothing but the dustbin

that'd got wind blown.....

My ghost was the old dustbin...

my mother had disown!![;)]

Dont Want It.....

2005-10-07T07:35:00.000-07:00

I dont want this to have any ends

I dont want this to make any more sense

I dont want to try too hard to keep

I dont want this to get any deep

I dont wanna commit

I dont want it!!

We are perfect the way we are

Cant care more than I care

I dont want this to head any where

I dont to plan future for us

nopes...

I dont want any fuss!!

I dont wanna commit

I dont want it!!

Oh! yeah....

You say HI...

I reply

dont depend on you.... and why

why should I....

yeah! dont want to fall in love with you

nor with any body else too

I dont wanna commit...

I dont want it!!

Virgin Island

2005-10-05T09:44:00.000-07:00

Its a wonderful world in my thoughts

where I wander all alone........

Its a virgin island.....full of mysteries,

no one has ever known.

All my likes and dislikes,

my happinesses and my sorrows.....

Memories of the time passed by,

and dream for my tommorows!!

It has everything I ever wanted

everythinf for which i have cared

Every success every failure

and the pain I never shared!!

It has a garden of sunflowers

a clear blue sky...

I have no fears or inhibitions

so I spread my wings and fly.

And as the sunsets...

slowly arrives the night.....

I dip my feet in the flowing water

which glitters under moonlight.

The diamonds on my feet

and the twinkle in my eye

Its the magic of this island

deep in my thoughts which lie!!

Hope..!!

2005-10-05T09:23:00.000-07:00

Lonely I was standing, in the sorrowful rain,

when you held out your hand to ease me of my pain...

I dont know what happened next or wat u did say

all I remember is the bright light which cobered the grey...

You given me a shoulder for me to cry over,

You've given me a reason to live with the love that you shower.

I cant imagine what would have happened hadnt u been there,

'coz I was following a path that led me nowhere....

I had no control like in fist I held on to dry sand,

but you changed it all with the magic in your hands...

My friend my love my guardian angel.. thats YOU,

with all of my heart I promise, forever I 'll be true!!

So Much.....

2005-10-05T06:03:00.000-07:00

I sit by my window, and wonder at times,

So many people and so many lives....

So little time.. and so much to discover,

So many to call friends but not a single lover...

Just one heart and so many beats,

So many ways which never meets....

So many questions so many queries,

Life of a day and a zillion worries....

So may reasons to live and die,

So many oppurtunities that pass us by....

So much to give for so much I have taken,

So much to renounce and assent the forsaken....

So many songs but limited words,

So many wishes and prayers unheard.....

So many smiles I want to share,

So many people to love and to care !!

Alone !

2005-10-05T05:55:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time,
and I have been so lonely,
There's no one but me...
and me only!!

Its been so long
since we were togather,
Yeah! that lasted...
but why not forever.

Its you who's changed
'coz I am still the same...
You are gone, I am lost
and I dont know whom to blame!!

We were different people
and we knew it all along,
Everything was perfect...
dont know what went wrong.

Whatever might have been the reason
but one thing is for sure,
My love for you my dear
was always true and pure.

You never cared to explain
no reasons and you were gone....
You promised to be there forever
but now, I am all alone!!

The Gals Of The Group!!

2005-10-04T10:53:00.000-07:00

In order from left to right:
Yellow bole to Ashim
Red has to be Rashi
Eiti as usual not being payed attention to;)
n oops.... why am i so camera shy!!

(p.sp: dont miss my dragon cross... keeps bad vibes away :D )

Ankit.....

2005-10-04T10:17:00.000-07:00

New Kid on the Block!!

This is Ankit... Modern BK pass out

a cute little thing....

Is extremely courtious...

And yeah... this is exactly how he looks... :D

(P.S: He just turned 20!!)

Rambo!!

2005-10-04T10:12:00.000-07:00

Do I need to say nethin....

lol!!

This is Rambo....

the only guy who challenges me fr a karate or boxin fight...

speak of GUTS!! :P

Cute Malli..... Arvind

2005-10-04T09:43:00.000-07:00

Now here is a Sample Piece....

U wont get such that easy... mind ya

this one is made on order...Custom Made!!

(P.S.: That reminds me his shoes are custom made, n at times he borrows them from mister clown from the circus!!)

Now... had he been a gal...

he sure would have married Sam Sir!!...

oops did i forget to tell hes our Juni...!!

To know bout him u may either contact City Mental Asylum...

or wait fr my poem :D!!

Amit....

2005-10-04T09:37:00.000-07:00

This is OUR Amit... the Kid!!
There is so much bout him that its taking time for me to write a poem...
But hey... Never Say Die...
The poem comin up pretty soon
till then enjoy the Pic!!

Samarth....

2005-10-04T09:19:00.000-07:00

Samarth "Jordan" Sharma

guess thats what we should call

This guy who's the best

when it comes to Basket Ball !!

Loves the games

and hates to loose,

once on court...

with the ball he'll cruise

Has a tanned complexion

n real curly hair

A true Scorpion in temprament

his sorrows he wont share

He can be nice,

he can be real rude

Some think he's dud

n some call him DUDE!!

He's got a masculine bod

but a very faminine touch

and there was this chimpanzee guy

whom he loved very much..;)

He's kindda moody

and easy to get tense

Kinddov an extremist

but would dtill make sense!!:P

With Them....

2005-10-04T08:13:00.000-07:00

After the sun sets down,
when moonlight
is all to be seen around...
the cool breeze of feburary
tickles my soul...
the stars twinkle
and sing me a song
dancing all along.....
makin me feel the happiness
of being there
of being their...
n being what i am!!

I love their songs
the tunes so sweet...
wonders of nature
n my own heart beat...
Everything so cheerful
everyone so complete...
No wandering no fears
Here I am....
in heaven!!
With all my dears!!

Ashim...!!

2005-10-04T07:31:00.001-07:00

Story of Ashim, a goofy tale

Girl at heart born as male...

He'll laugh at jokes you least expect

A kleptomaniac n an obvious suspect(dont believe me[;)])

He's all crazy, he's very shy

Please dont tease him, he may cry....

Bakul his sister of whom he fear

Wont mind barmuda in a formal wear!!

Like Chandler he's a muddle head

The only guy with glow stars in bed...

Calls me Phoebz when he's in mood

He's bad at english n cant spell rude[:)]

He flaunts his pulsar as if Davidson

Loves to ride it be it rain or sun!!

A bald head he's chinky faced

Dont be surprised if his undies are laced...(lol...srry dude)

Motchu as we call him his nick name

Lovey if u call him... he'll go insane

All are his friends foes beng none

King of PJ's he's the only one[:)]

Its Rashi.....!!

2005-10-04T07:08:00.000-07:00

Rashi Goel one of best friends

She is one of those who never miss the trends

She has beautiful eyes, wide and big

N when she starts talking she can even beat MIG!!

Her mind is sharp, her heart is gold

Has her ideas like Granny so very old!!

Red is her colour, and no money for the guess

And her shoes will always match her dress

She can talk about fashion all day long

And dare u challenge her 'coz shes never wrong!!

Her hair so black straight they fall

She goes mall hoppin when we play basket ball[:P]

Books are her second love, first being ME...[:D]

Thats all for u to know bout Rashi !!

Lets sart with Eiti

2005-10-04T02:05:00.000-07:00

I know a girl, With an alien name....

Who'll certainly get her place In the Hall of Fame!!

Music's her passion Rock being first love...

Her smile so innocent N eyes like a dove...

Looks like a bug without no wing...

U will trust me If you hear her sing!!

Likes Nirvana Metallica all rock so loud...

Link her with Beckham n shes on the 9th cloud.

Like tall guyz Short hair n lean...

Calls me Phoebe n heself Rachael Green!!

Micheal Schumacher is of whom she dreams,

Along with chocolates Candies n Ice creams!!

Clear about her goals, determined n crude

Born optimist with a winners attitude..

Akshat Nauriyal was her first crush

But when she heard **** sing she did blush[;)]!!

You must have guessed who could she be...

with all these qualities its gotta be ET(eiti) !!

The Stranger

2005-10-04T01:16:00.000-07:00

That guy on the porch,
Dark, Tall and Strong...
Still not sure of his looks,
As hes standing under the torch!!

I know hes looking at me
But not that I care...
I am wondering, just
for what is he here....

He doesn't seem to be a neighbour
Not even a friend....
Oh My God!! whats this.....
Now hes waving his hand !!

Do i really know him,
Now I am in a fix...
Should I wave back
I am so mixed!!

Dad!! I shouted...
With all my guts out....
The guy came running to me...
n Said, "I am right here... whats there to shout"